After years of randomly recording my studio with my camera, I never really thought of starting a YouTube channel, I merely did it to keep a record of my surroundings and hopefuly later assemble mini art documentaries about it, just to complement my exhibitions. I’ve always been a little anxious of what others might think, whether I seem to be this way or another, or if I’m being misunderstood or severely judged, etc. As an artist, it’s not easy to decide what approach you want your work and your persona to have: am I being serious enough?, am I boring if so? How much of yourself are you allowed to be? Are you comfortable in your skin? What mask are you going to wear? It takes a long way to decipher and unravel all these answers. Ultimately, it all comes down to the eagerness each one has to learn and become a greater individual, by recognizing the faulty patterns that drag us down, oftentimes unknowingly.
In the recent past, I’ve gradually become more self-assured, I guess unlocking certain misconceptions of the world has brought incredible sensations of relief and clarity I didn’t see coming at all. These new states of mind are allowing me to express everything more freely, with less fear of judgement, hence the openess I’ve found in a medium such as vlogging. I won’t lie, I’ve been watching a bunch of art vloggers, and personally, in the beginning, I truly found the peace and quiet my brain needed in the moment. The first one I discovered was Valerie Lin
, a german art student so enchanting that not only will she show you her technique and tricks, but take you on trips to museums in Berlin and give you insights on her experiences as a creator in general.
I had enough material already, so I sat down & took some Premiere Pro lessons, began assembling this first vlog and also produced some music in GarageBand (it’s hard to find decent no copyright background music). I was so stressed about not having a clear idea on the video’s subject I just took the mic and started improvising. It took me about 3 shots to finally catch a decent flow and there’s the whole take with some adjustments. I’m excited to make more music to go along with these vlogs and see how this new processes can add to my regular ways of conceiving art.
La desintoxicación del mundo actual